mY StoRy

2009-04-15T04:42:00.000-07:00

I miss u.. but i cant express nor say... cos its no longer the same as before -_-

2009-04-13T08:40:00.000-07:00

STOP STALKING ON ME!! give me a break!!! plss.... im seriously not interested now...

2009-04-12T09:42:00.000-07:00

Im so proud of you :)

yea, everyday you proved to me my decision is right.

Beautiful Imperfection

2009-04-11T09:30:00.000-07:00

Look at relationships from a different light. You dont need to have a perfect someone in order to be happy ever after... Nobody is perfect. As Long As two hearts really meet felt it close together... No matter who you are... He/She will always be ur beautiful imperfection

Loosing someone is not easy, treasure ur love ones every moment u have... becos,
Nothing is Forever in This World.

Even You have tried ur best to make it Forever :..)

So, treasure ur beautiful imperfections when they are still around with u in this world :)

2009-04-09T10:30:00.000-07:00

說好的幸福呢?

2009-04-03T19:13:00.000-07:00

i am weighted in different position in seasons... dec-jan: high peak season , jan-march :peak seaon, april on : holiday season but yet non peak... and invisible... new attractive product launching and coming up.

2009-04-01T09:16:00.000-07:00

Its april fool ... 1st of april.. (-_-.)

2009-03-30T11:12:00.000-07:00

Finally, finally im willing to break down n cry .. thnk god.. its sucks to kip inside.. reali sucks..

2009-03-27T14:59:00.000-07:00

someone pls stay... cos everyone is leaving

2009-03-23T02:13:00.000-07:00

its true.. i duno wat i really want...

I Stay In Love

2009-01-30T22:18:00.000-08:00

Dying inside 'cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby I try and try so hard
To keep our love alive

If you don't know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's a mistake if we just erase it
From our hearts and minds and I know

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me'cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
But baby, babyI stay in love with you

It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gonna act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all now

Hey, what I wanna do is
Ride shotgun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block
Proud in the SUVWe both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone
Now go I know

why hope?

2009-01-30T01:32:00.000-08:00

just hope to be the only one in your eyes

why is it so hard

2008-12-01T22:22:00.000-08:00

Same old problems comes back again and again...

Im taking it all in but please help me

guess i just nid a friendly hug and a word "u can do it" to motivates on...

Jia you everyone too...

2008-11-23T21:25:00.000-08:00

IF....
im still willing to wait... r u willing to accept n nt give up

2008-11-18T00:40:00.000-08:00

will history repeats itself again... pls dun... pls...

2007-09-15T03:46:00.000-07:00

:) life still goes on.

im glad. n i realise, after a thunder rain, not always rainbow comes next. but atleast bright sunlight will definately shines on :)

sad n happy times. always here for everyone. it'll just depends whether it's a real impact ones, or some tt can overcome it earlier than others. i dun like to blame anyone when problem aries. u handle it, u control ur emotions. its hard not to drop tears if it hurts u. but no one point a knife to force u to cry. so? :.) mayb crying this way helps? haha i duno.

i have no confident to say im fine. but atleast i m so to say i'll be fine.

suntec has just ended. but not fully ended.
mummy's health happened for a few mnths, but problem not fully solved
my exams jus ended, but final exam nearing
my shop. the past few mnths prob as its gg dwnslope due to lack of time to manage
driving test on dec, n i must pass to enlighten my sis workload to fetch mum for her therapy

yup. above r wat i need to get busy with ahead.

suntec gotta work hard. not for those tt look dwn on us. but for those tt r supporting us.
mummy we gotta work hard. not because we wana treasure time left. but because we believe it wont b ending tat soon. things will get picked up, mum can go thru her treatment well... business still goes gd as she also working hard for. n we'll be happily gg for our holiday together in nov after her treatments.
exams r reali hard to cope. esp econs -_- . but ofcos... i dun feel i'll loose out. as long as i plan it well, everything will be fine just like my past study method.
shop lost quite a sum for the past few mnths. but now it'll be back to alive again. hired one part time. someone tt i can trust. gg thru trainings with her now. changing my price list n services tt im provide. adding more varieties n promotions. will b advertising it out soon when i'm done w my new manicurist training. believe in two weeks time. it'll goes well. not definately, but believing. ^_^ why so? cos im a business marketing undergrad ;)
driving. haha... im a gd driver ok. ;p safest driver tt onli run 40km fastest on the road. comon' spore drivers shld follow k. driving one time pass? no problem man(hum ji voice)

hoho, guess there's quite alot to do for the rest of tis year.

jj = superwomen

nope

jj = slimerwomen

i wana slim dwn la! -_-"'

ok no link i noe

ciaoz!

2007-08-02T00:58:00.000-07:00

schizophrenia

according to dictionary.com, schizophrenia is a state characterized by the coexistence of contradictory or incompatible elements.reiterates my current state to a T, albeit not clinically.

I'm feeling so overwhelmed by all sorts of emotions right now i don't even know what i'm feeling anymore.

had a tiff with my mum yesterday.. felt very hurt cos here we are trying our very best to get her better and there she is not understanding her priorities - to get her health back into shape.

i'm frustrated and worried at the same time. on one hand, i don't want to lose her. on the other, i'm just VERY VERY tired of fighting this battle with an unknown monster by the name of CANCER.

I don't know how to fight it. It's beyond me.. but i want to win this battle soooooo bad!

If it was something i can just kill with my bare hands, i will gladly do it for my mum. but i can't and i need her cooperation to increase the chances..I'm trying my very best to empathize with her situation of not having anyone to help her with things and having to manage on her own but is it not already crystal clear that it would be way better to lose the money than her health?

i am so mentally drained i fear i will lose my mind.

i. am. so. tired.

^
ABOVE :
taken from my elder sis's blog written last night.
wat can i do now? its not in our control. money or health is the issue i reali sa no words.

frustrating. YES it definately is.

Pls be fair to us. we lost so many things in life. i dun need the wealth. i need the love.
i hope she understands. we need her more than anything...

pls dun gif up sis. thnks for doing the most my dear younger sis. hope u understands we r trying the best. and pls dun gif up da jie. i promise im supporting.

Pls dun leave

2007-07-26T22:55:00.000-07:00

LEAVING...

Everyone is leaving... who gonna stay behind with me...

You left me ... with a gentle smile, and caring hand. holding me when i fall...

You left me ... without a word left behind, the sickness brought u away, but the soul kept deep dwn my heart.

You left me ... when both of our character couldnt meet, but silence closeness ends it peacefully i tot... but now then i realise u tot im toying u... tt hurts deep down

You left me ... cos of regrets u made, without a sign for me to prepare. left me with disappointment. the sister love jus end with no words to continue. it has become fake.

Now... i hope you wont leave me, because i noe i love u and we need u more than anyone else. we'll always be your good girls. still the strong girls that no one dares to bully. even we left with no guys in the family to protect.

we r the daugther (son) & u r our Mother (father) :..)

BE HEalthy For US and urself...

I'm still praying *** pls dun leave

2007-07-11T15:12:00.000-07:00

im surprised how fast u moved on. but im glad u did... tc

2007-06-08T17:46:00.000-07:00

If a Man wants You

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.

Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be riends."

A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

Don't settle.
If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

Don't stay because you think "it will get better."

You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.

He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant,Why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything.

He will use it against you later.You cannot change a man's behavior.

Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job.

Do not make him into a quasi-god.He is a man, nothing more nothing less.Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man.
Oh Lord! If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.

A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two-way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciatethem, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

Thanks jie for tis post :)

2007-05-08T10:54:00.000-07:00

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2007-04-21T05:11:00.000-07:00

im grateful. reali do. i duno hu are u guys. but im sure u r ppl i do noe. thnks friends. whoever u r. why human being cannot b grateful and stop complaining things tt they feel its unfair to them? im one too..

mistakes. everybody do make mistakes. do we reali learn from it?

empty. im empty. i duno y. bt i feel empty.

are tears reali a right way to express ur emotions? i hate crying. cos i cry easily. i hate it.

yes. i do wish to be jus like a lucky princess. wishes come true. though i dun haf my fairy god "father" around anymore.

when can i reali grow. being strong isnt easy. but i noe its not hard too...

y mus i keep feelings by myself. anywhere tt i can let go? anywhere tt i can cry n let go w/o holding back any thoughts? bring me to somewhere pls

wo ye kai shi ai shang zhuan jiao le. i hope every zhuan jiao will be a happy one. no more tears pls. i wish...

ru guo wo you shan ge yuan wang, wo xi wang. . .

zai ye bu diao yan lei

zai ye bu kan jian shang xin

zai ye mei you hou hui

2007-04-18T02:10:00.000-07:00

yes... dreams dun come true...

Sweet Dreams never come true

i felt it already

Shld i stop dreaming...

i starting to hate dreams

how bout nightmares?

i had it, felt it, n y must nightmares come true...

its painful

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2007-03-16T11:54:00.000-07:00

remembering you silently through the night

making every second last.
every moment,everyday.
its what i dream
time stood still that day by the sea.
i wont let that go at any price.
your face in the setting sun,it was the best moment in my life.
kissing you,pleasing you.
its your smile
its everything i dream.
don't shut the door
don't let go
my heart aches for you
for you to kiss me once more.
Baby... i love you in an un expressible way. im sorry... (-_-.)

My Girl

2007-03-16T09:40:00.000-07:00

In a faraway country along the coastline of the oceans
There was a girl lying across the Garden
Full of innocence on her eyes, yet seeking attention
Simply put,no other men could simply resist this temptation
Lust or Love, many men were immediately captivated by her irresistable sensation

The crown on her head,
creates a large shade
Her big brown eyes,
as pure as Christ
Her inpenetrable skin complex,
a diamond can't buy its worth, let alone a Rolex
Her smooth silky hair,
which made the other girls around her so bare
Her pink kissable pair of lips,
lets this person fall for her even more deep

Fortunate as he may be
the person who fell so deeply with her
could only let the rest envy in jealousy
Indeed, that person was lucky for sure
despite having to pay a sum of fee
i.e the fee of having to Love Her forever.
I'm sorry baby. U're too precious
Signing out,
Anonymous

My shop

2007-02-07T02:39:00.000-08:00

Everyone :) hows life? im very tired though... but today got a strong urge on blogging...

I'm busy, packed with stuffs... exhausted...
My shop is opening soon... stress becoming even stronger n heavy for me.

I dun reali into doing nails... to be honest. i didnt expect ended up doing tis as my career for this time being... its nice being a towkay. its stressful too. not because of anything. but my mummy... its hurtful to see her being tired until vomited out tis noon. my heart aching. My cafes and salon shops are in a loosing side. I hope i can help her to earn back the loss... i'm hoping. but chances are slim. 24hrs is jus not enough for me.

Im thankful... thankful to sooo many of u. My two darlings Js (Jov & Jo) thnk u so much. support me. working nites thru out with me. dun mind coming down to help out everyday after work and sch. thnk god i haf two of u in my life. no words i can express... the love is jus so much. rest well k... xin ku ni men le... ofcos dear jeremy too... :) w/o u. my shop wouldnt be so perfect. w/o u... guess my shop can onli open next new year. i admire ur efficieny and calmness... :) thnks jer. Dearest becca... thnks for the flyers design, u nv feel to be there when i need help. really greatful. thnks for everyone that comes to support my shop. reali reali happy that some slots are alrdy full before new yr. Thnk u U6, thnk u Big jess&Mum, thnk u xiang mei, thnk u mei jun, thnk u so much! n ofcos... two charming guy tt comes just main purpose is to support me! my dear Ter and Clement!!! i promise will paint the best black colour for u all! ;)

Last but not least, im mus special thnk audrey(My ex boss). thnks for ur kindness... pls understand im opening it purely to help my mum. u will always be my boss... no boss will ever be as nice as u:)

Dear... thnks for ur understanding. im sorry i cant acc u as much when u book out. but im so thnkful that i got an understanding u by my side. nv fail to help me out with u little time constraint. nv fail to cook an "Ai Xin" dinner for me when u noe i haven had my dinner. and nv fail to keep mi gg even u r in camp. i love you so... n i noe cos its u :)

but audrey says my charges is too cheap... but wat can i do? i cant make it higher... if nt... i dun think i can earn back my mum's lost... now i can only keep going. striving hard for it. i jus hope my mum will be healthy... pls dun be so tired... im trying my best to help... im trying...

dear friends : pls support

scared

2007-01-23T12:20:00.000-08:00

Nothing i can say... nothing i can do. i'm just worried. im scared... going for the bone therapy in 2 mins time. no one to turn to at this split second. how will i become after that? can i recover or my slip disc will get worst? i duno. Doctor says no choice . But mum insist chinese way. i cant think now. i cant decide myslef... i just noe its painful... just pls pray for me.

2007-01-12T09:02:00.000-08:00

No one ever saw me like u do, all the things that i could add up to.
I never knew just what the smile was worth but your eyes say everything without a single word. Cos there's something in the way you look at me. I
t's as if my heart knows, you're the missing piece.
make me believe that there's nothing in this world i can't be. I
never know what you see, but there's something in the way, you look at me.
if i could freeze a moment in my mind, I'd be the second that you touch your lips to mine.
I'd like to stop the clock, make time stand still. C
os baby this is just the way i always wanna feel.
Against all odds, you'll always be a part of me.
I love you more than you know despite my flaws.
I miss you all the time when you're not around
But my love piece of heart will standby u for your return...

Miss you siao qi gui... ;)

put on ur thinking cap and think....

2007-01-11T17:29:00.000-08:00

Put On Your Thinking Cap & Think...

Think think ting ting ... Sooo Much things to think and plan.

Finally Attachment over in 5 weeks time. So busy doing shit work. And busy too planning ahead. I guess everyone have the same encouter when they gg to graduate? wat should i do after grad. lost.Everyone talking about new yr resolution. I see lots of post about it. Especial Ariel's Blog! hee... Stanley Says he New yr Resolution is to have lots of Gf haha ( now he hum ji wana change cos he noe i blogging in.. lolx) now he wana be more hamm some... Anne, she haven think of it yet. Stanley says anne want more guys get his number in club this year. lolx.. (Zach just kidding k, anne loves u most ;p) Wayne he busy with his icon.. i guess he just wana be the Icon King and work hard to marry his gf next yr. Hmm... the rest are not ard in office.

Well... how bout me? Im 21 this year! sooo...

My 21 New Year Resolutions... Hmm Let me think;

1. I hope my back can cure soon... so i can exercise more, dance more and slim dwn plenty plenty -_-
2. I hope it'll be a happy year for everyone. everyone smile more, laugh more and lesser stress in working life and school.
3. I hope my shop can run successfully and less stressful for me pls....
4. I hope my family can have good health and safe all year round ! Smile more mummy~
5. I hope Dear can be less stress in camp. As for us, Everything can mantain as good as now :)
6. I hope I'll be able to get into Spore Uni.. if not... I gonna miss everyone in Singapore :(
7. I hope Babin Will gone soon!!
8. Hope i can eat Ben & Jerry Everyday and not getting fat or diabetes :p
9. I hope no more cry baby Jj
10. I hope Money money come come. Worry worry Go go!
11. No cancer Please -_-
12. Pretty pretty hair/complexion and tummy esp. i hate spare tyres =X
13. Flu Free!!!
14. Having a Best 21st Birthday in my life.
15. Able to Travel to Japan/Korea/Hawaii/Bintan Lagoon/Redang and ofcos Bangkok(same place)
16. Improve on techniques. Complete My ballet and dance with you on stage :)
17. Get back in touch with primary sch / sec sch & Poly Clicks.
18. I miss Joreen/ mei qi/ alan/ ken/ Zhuang ling/ marcus/ vernis too:( my mediacorp kakis
19. Do things that ive regretted not doing/ stopped half way for the last few years.
20. Going back to laos for atleast a week stay. I miss my darlings. I miss the teaching lesson. "Kaku keku piong"
21. Hee... Though no chance to be Miss Singapore Pageant .. But I still hope "WORLD PEACE" lols

2006-12-29T09:18:00.000-08:00

"Sorry" Seems to be the hardest word isnt it?

It is indeed the hardest word for those who will regret later in life, maybe.

Very complicated starting statement. I was just thinking what the lyricist of this song was feeling when he penned this song.
'What do I do to make you love me? What do I do to make you stay? What do I do when lightning strikes me?'

Ha! I just hope when lightning really strikes and you have only one breath left, you will not feel SORRY for yourself. For not having that courage to say sorry when you were alive and you have to bring this regret to your next life.

I am someone who does not wish to live with regrets. You never lived until you tried. Even if it fails, you have seeked closure. I think closures are important for you to move on full force in life.

All the questions left unspoken. Answers left buried within. How can one live this way? I would seek to find the truth, even if it hurts. This kinda pain are only temporary. It will heal rather than the pain of being around the person you once love and still loves but she is just so far.
If someone chose to keep quiet, there's only two reason. He/she doesnt know how to espress or he/she simply just giving up.

I'm leaving with lots of unspoken for both the reason. It wasnt me, i knew it clearly. World has become more and more practical. Selfishness,hurts and polluted the relationships around friends and ppl u care (maybe b4), Cos now it has being destroyed due to selfishness. I use to treasure , use to love everyone that i felt it reali worth it to. It's been striking me wrong. No one will care abt ur self esteem. No one will care if u are drown in the sea not becos they duno how to swim. its just they dun wana get wet themself? thats reali a scary reason. Mayb its my bad to take it so seriously. maybe im wrong. but, im tired to think so much anymore. cos who even care? its sometimes gd to leave unspoken when u think it no longer meaningful for it. mayb onli i think so=) i will smile and as if nothing happening. buts its trap in me.

Dad use to tell me. dun stop giving even u get cheated by ppl 8 out of 10times . becos the 2 that u helped will be much appreciated for giving. you safe two lifes though eight had stapped u from behind. As long as things that dun kills you, just make you stronger. I always believe in that. Even now. being cheated hurts alot. bt i might still be doing it. cos i always belief wat dad says. things that dun kill you makes you stronger. and im always stronger than wat i reali am. maybe not always. but atleast i manage to live on my past 7yrs without dads protection. so many different kinds of ppl ive met. never ever forget .

Human beings naturally take things for granted. Why must its b the excuse to escape? I love the start of friendship when its fresh. i love the middle when its true. i hate the end when things changes.

"Tian xie mei you bu shan de yan si" It's a chinese quotes. Meaning there's no one gathering that doesnt part/separates. Everyone will leave. Even families and love ones. I dun wish to stay in this reality, so many came to my life. Let me felt the floating feeling. And eventually left after a while. I treasure still. becos i knew the begining are always so real. I miss and i cry cos im reali tresuring. n i noe i can onli treasure and keep it in my memories when its gone.

Just trying not to regret on anything. i hope all of u too.

I Just walked home from school. Thought alot for that 2hours journey. I think about my past , present and future. If today is my last day in the world, who will i be calling or looking for? Who will i apologise to ?

I came to a conclusion when i got to my house lift. Im sorry to dad. That I cant be as Strong and as forgiving as him . When he left this world. I'm just too late to say sorry that I didnt treasure you. I'm sorry...

Sorry really isn't such a difficult word. Er, by the way, asians have a bad habit of saying sorry till its meaningless. Start observing today. Say it when you really mean it and someone will feel the importance of this word. :)

2006-12-26T10:54:00.000-08:00

baby. thnks for giving me this white xmas:) I love you

& everyone... I Lost my phone-_-

2006-12-24T03:44:00.001-08:00

My wishes had nv come true. same goes for this year. Merry Xmas Everyone :)

2006-12-21T17:30:00.000-08:00

back hurts early in the morning... so tired i wana slp!!! now is only 9.22am~ gosh... so many hours to go... i need food... why cant the office just give us free macdonalds breakfast everyday?? how about sausage muffin with egg meal change to ice milo? hmm... yu kun toast will be nice on the alternate dayz... gosh... i'm getting more and more hungry!!!

my back so so so so painful :( doctor bluff me! i think he just wants to earn more of my money. so need me to be in pain~ evil him !! :(

x'mas coming... but im broke for any xmas shopping... im so sorry to so many ppl... haiz... how i wish now $1000 just drop from the sky. or mayb appears in my bag next moment i opens it later? i think i'm not fully awake... still dreaming...

2006-12-21T01:22:00.000-08:00

fuck up world with all these FUCK up people aroud!!! I hate it!!!!! Fuck up life!!!

dear n mi

2006-12-19T19:31:00.000-08:00

Dear says : see steph & peiqi's blog... so sweet they look so in love...
Reply : We sweet we two know can alrdy wadz

haha.. k la... love my oreo cookie more each day! now he is in the airforce, jia you k dear i noe no matter how hard / tough u will be able to handle it right ;)

had a wonderful time with dear last week, besides all my surgery etc. Thnks for taking care of me. Your panick face when i'm in pain also quite cute ^-^ hee... always remind me to update my blog, nah... this post is just openly for you k :) ppl please say us sweet if not i post for nothing... wahaha.. *ter jealous ma? hehe tts my point! lols kidding. I missing every one :( esp dou, fred, xiang, ken & ter( i still miss u k). Missing the time spent chilling, gossiping, doing nothing and how they force me to come out by waiting at my house downstair during my exam period!!!! this doesnt mean i dun miss the rest k. i miss nra ppl. everyone plays a part of moments tat i've spent in nra and hanging out w nra peeps are still the best time ever. i'll nv ever forget the gd n bad times. they are all so precious to me. ^^

Opps! Shucks... i tot i've mentioned that this post is purely for dear only =X lols kk...

So... hmm Ive my best moments with you last week ^^
U surprised me at the dental surgery clinic and i'll nv forget the reply to me when i asked u why you are here and how u get here? "I'm here coz i know u need me :) " -=thnks dear=-

The sentosa trip and xmas shopping!!! though is reali a tiring day. but i really really had fun. esp all those ba bin photos that turns out so dope after u photoshop it! hehes...

Addictors training together, oso can oso can session is so fun! love addictors !!! dopest oso can grp! haha

The dinner with your family... keke... i miss the beef =/ now... right now.. i hungry le =/ the way u treated me so well. even ur mum is doubting ur concern to me " Ken got take good care of gf one ma? or you taking care of him? tell me... cos i have never seen him taking care of anyone. I am the one who always need to take care of him" hehes.. this shows that dear... u r a man now le ! lols... my flying air force dopy ns man!

Your room will be even more baby blue soon! trust me dear... haha . Dun bully my forever friend! must hug her when im nt ard ar! if i see her on the floor again! i .... i ... i ..... i sleep with yuki (-_-")

the cookies we made... esp the addidas ones. lol... when we opening tt famous amos shop2? ^^

and now i remeber something.... the reason why i gt this two pimples on my face is cos of ur camo cream la!!!! u r the culprit! 4 more pimple on ur face tis week! LALALALA~

dear... dun forget the ben & jerry tis week when u book out! Jj Waiting~~~ lalalalala~~~

tHe CuLPrIt iS You!!!

thanks for taking care of me while palying your counter stirke or playing your counter strike while taking care of me?? hmm.... *confuse

Dear dear.... why you no ba bin (-_-"')

The best View When I opens my eye every morning :)

Sun tanning day!!!

Butter factory~~

2006-12-17T23:31:00.000-08:00

wahahaha... recieved links on friendster early in the morning when i reach office... oh my gosh!! u guys watch youself... i think u all will laugh till lau sai.

I was onli 15yrs old at that time kie -_-"'
xiao mei mei bu dong shi.

Really song -_-"' u all can laugh. but not too loud lolx.

3 videos here! enjoy! wahahaha

1st video: Song > coco lee so crazy
-Orange tee shirt : me -_-
-Blue tee shitrt : Jovelle
-Black tee shirt : joanna
-Red tee shirt : Stephanie Tan
-Yellow tee shirt : Pin hui
-Red Sleevless : Elvi
-Breaker : kenny, zhe loon, Chee keng, siu loon
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bOtTMsvpzWg

2nd video: Song > V6 We can do it
- Baby Blue Jersey : Me -_-"
- Orange Jersey : Jovelle
- Red Jersey : Joanna
- Yellow Jersey : Stephanie Tan
- White Jersey : Valerie
- Red Jersey : Elvi
- White Jersey : Anad
- Black Jersey : Qi xian
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ykjB9ZswicI

3rd Video : song i forgot but its by celine dion ;p
- Yellow dress : Me
- Blue Dress Stephanie Tan
- Red Dress : Joanna
- Orange Dress : Jovelle
- Pink Dress : Valerie
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ym4qnlsZQ3E

its the joke of the day man! lolx.. but it's memorable that i dance like that last time lolx.. gosh *faint

2006-12-15T02:54:00.000-08:00

Treated me kind
Sweet destiny
Carried me through desperation
T o the one that was waiting for me
It took so long
Still I believed
Somehow the one that I needed
Would find me eventually
I had a vision of love
And it was all that you've given to me
Prayed through the nights
Felt so alone
Suffered through alienation
Carried the weight on my own
Had to be strong
So I believed
And now I know I've succeeded
In finding the place I conceived
I had a vision of love
And it was all that you've given to me
My vision of love

What if?

2006-12-15T02:50:00.000-08:00

Love wandered inside
Stronger than you
Stronger than I
And now that it has begun
We cannot turn back
We can only turn into one
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
And I'll always remember
The part of you so tender
I'll be the one to catch your fall
Whenever you call
And I'm truly inspired
Finding my soul
There in your eyes
And you
Have opened my heart
And lifted me inside
By showing me yourself
Undisguised
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all

2006-12-12T01:35:00.000-08:00

contradiction, adjitation, speechlessness, guilt, hope, grace, love. these are the words that linger in a broken soul, the feelings of a dampen heart. Confusion lives in the mind. Choices we make, we see them for what they're worth tomorrow. fear can stop you loving. love can stop your fear, but its not always that clear. there are always two sides to everything. the power to choose. it takes courage, and wisdom. it takes wisdom to make decisions, and courage to see it through for not always are decisions easy. even if it were the right one.
life is a spectrum of colours. blue, violet, green, yellow. they're ever so beautiful. at the other end of colours that exists are the shades of grey. doubt, pain and confusion. they're the ones we dont want to see, but they exists in the lives of every person. take it in, thats what should be done. we walk past these shadows, but they'll follow. they always do. gotta look away? or we could kill doubt, the demons that break our soul and damnpen our hearts. having faith is important. but what if you found out we had faith in something that didnt have faith in itself? we hurt the ones we love. its not human nature to do so, even if its human nature to be afraid and take precautions to protect our fragile hearts we wont give to them who swear upon their lives will keep safe in theirs. this is where we decide not to cry isnt it? it was decided at the very start to hurt the ones we love. walking thru the grey path together? or parting cause the other one refuse to see the end of spectrum. decision lies on two hearts that suppose to think as one. if only one wishes to walk down alone. that'll be the end of the spectrum sight :)

2006-12-08T00:22:00.000-08:00

Everything i do is wrong. Even i dont do anything . Im in the wrong too.
Hide in the dark corner think you will be much happier

slpy @ work

2006-12-06T16:53:00.000-08:00

I gotta blog... I need to blog! Help me... my eye is reali closing... back hurting... I want to slp!!! ZZZZZzzzzzzzzz....

Recieved this pic from stanley today...
taken few weeks back During public launching of the Bungalows @ Caldecott

From Upper Left : Old School Joe & Christine
From bottom Left: Anne, Jj & Stanley
Missinh Team: Wayne , Old School Dary & Sidyz

2006-12-05T15:11:00.000-08:00

Anne's bf send her this today. hahax... share w all of u ^_^

IF YOU HAVE EVER WONDERED WHY MEN LIE.

One day, while a woodcutter was cutting a branch of a tree above a river, his axe fell into the river. When he cried out, the Lord appeared and asked, "Why are you crying?" The woodcutter replied that his axe has fallen into water, and he needed the axe to make his living. The Lord went down in the water and reappeared with a golden axe. "Is this your axe?" the Lord asked. The woodcutter replied, "No." The Lord again went down and came up with a silver axe. "Is this your axe?" the Lord asked. Again, the woodcutter replied, "No." The Lord went down again and came up with an iron axe." Is t! his your axe?" the Lord asked. "Yes", he replied. The Lord was pleased with the man's honesty and gave him all three axes to keep, and the woodcutter went home happy.

Some time later the woodcutter was walking with his wife along the riverbank, and his wife fell into the river. When he cried out, the Lord again appeared and asked him, "Why are you crying?" "Oh Lord, my wife has fallen into the water!" The Lord went down into the water and came up with sexy Angelina Jolie. "Is this your wife?" the Lord asked. " Yes," cried the woodcutter. The Lord was furious. "You lied! That is an untruth!" The woodcutter fell to his knees and cried, "Oh, forgive me, Lord. It is a misunderstanding. You see, if I had said 'no' to Angelina Jolie, You would have come up with Catherine Zeta-Jones. Then, if I also said 'no'! to her, you would have come up with my wife. Had I then said 'yes,' you would have given me all three. Lord, I am a poor man, and am not able to take care of all three wives, and I love my wife such that I don't want her to share me with anyone, so THAT'S why I said yes to Angelina Jolie." The moral of this story is: Whenever a man lies, it is for a good and honorable reason, and for the benefit of others.. MOSTLY his wife!

step up

2006-12-04T15:26:00.000-08:00

Dreamz Are always beautiful :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8LpwiWfzfaM

bad throat

2006-12-04T08:52:00.000-08:00

morning ! bad throat today... coughing whole night... but might be a good thing la.. can tk mc tml.. lolx so shld wish me speedy recovery or continue sick? hahaz.

2006-11-30T02:25:00.000-08:00

Its been a long time that I'm blogging for friends around me.. There's Troubles everywhere. At this point of time. Are u thinking that life is fated to be that way? Guess u are thinking to go along the "fated" path given to you. God creates you. But he did not create you life journey... I'm not a christian. nor any other religion. when hard time comes. You made your own decision all by yourself. No one is there to tell u nor theres a book/ guide written on what you gonna do next. My dear friend A, B, C & D. This blog is written specially for you 4 girls. It dun seem to be the time to surrender your life. "Ren Ming". Im not a good councilor. But I just hope I could help. I hope things I feel can piece out into words and sent across to you girls. I hope it might help a little.

I believe in fate but I don't think everything is destined. I would like to see it this way.

When I was born, I see a path in front of me. You stride on it with your dad and mum and you're happily hopping along this path.
Somehow the older you grow, the more paths branch out along the way. The more you understand and go through, the more paths will be presented to you at random times.

I choose not to believe that life is FATED. I choose to think that the more knowledge we gain and the more people we meet, we will come to certain nodes in our lives where we will be presented with a crossroad. At this junction, you have a few paths that are presented to you. You DO have the right to make the decision as to which path to choose. You decide which path to take.
Here's where the 'fated' part comes in. I believe whatever follows after you decide the path is somewhat fated.

You will walk along this 'fated' path until the next crossroad. At the next crossroad, you will see a new array of paths again awaiting for your decision. Whichever routes and paths you choose decides what will become of you at the end of the road.

Some paths may lead you back to a familiar path that you may have taken before. I have no regrets. I have no right to regret. Afterall, I chose the path myself. I just leave it to fate to decide what comes after each decision at each crossroad and make the best out of it.

I lost count of the number of crossroads in my life. I am now in another one but believe me, we are versatile creatures. Whichever path you chose, just keep walking straight. You will twist and contorl yourself to suit the environment along the way. Past is a fact. The future is still a blank. Keep your head and spirit up and you will find yourself getting through it.

I am what I am because of the decisions I have made. I am what I am because of the experiences I have had along each path. Life is a wonderful journey filled with unexpected entries everyday. I am loving what it brings. What about you? If you're not, you may want to walk to a crossroad and decide a new path to take? It's your take. :)

Everyday when i wake up, I have to start making decisions instantly. I decide if I wanna be happy or sad. Believe me. If you chose to be happy, the path that follows is fated. Most of the time, you will really be happy. Not all paths are smooth. They're fated anyway. Wake up to a new day and you're good to go again.
Afterall when you think again! Life is beautiful. Isn't it? :)

Cheer up my dear friends. I tear, I cry, I complaints having bad health, life and loosing love ones. I miss things that I've slipped away. I miss dad lots than anyone could imagine. But I'll nv forget to treasure mum, my family and you guys. Who noes. whats the next path ahead:) keep memories of the past and be ready to fill in the blanks for the future :) Love all of you!

I wish

2006-11-29T01:55:00.000-08:00

I wish "again"...

Having a bad flu now... down with cold again -_-
Do wishes really come true?
How many wishes that people hope had actually came true?
Many things I've wish before... non came to reality

1. I wish i could grow taller
But its obvious it nv come true -_-

2. I wish that I can pass my PSLE for express stream.
I passed but posted to normal acad cos 2 days of my psle, i'm down with high fever & serious asthma attack.

3. I wish Dad will recover from his illness
It didnt... dad still left me after 5 years of deep wishes

4. I wish I could be as healthy as the rest
But I'm still down with min. 2 times bad flu weekly and atleast 1 high fever monthly for my entire 20 years

5. I wish I would not nose bleed as much like the past.
But the more im cautious about it, the more frequent it'll come to me.

6. I wish hard that my o levels could pass smoothly without falling sick during exam period as i always will.
And I got high fever up to 39degree on the 2nd day of paper & throughout the rest of the examination period.

7. I wish to be cheerful forever
But someone hurts me so deep before till I go blind for e 2 yrs and suffer badly myself.

8. I wish I can persue my dream far enough.
And back injury pulling me away from everything I'm striving for.

And now... wish... if i were to wish again. Will Santa grant my wish this time round? I wish...

Cranberry fever

2006-11-28T19:24:00.001-08:00

Cranberry Fever This season

I've been Craving for Cranberry stuff all along. Cranberry sweet, cranberry seeds, cranberry juices... and now... I've bought the whole Cranberry body package! Gosh... Should i change my name to Cranberry too -_-

My Fav.

mei n me

2006-11-27T10:00:00.000-08:00

Started with a msiable day yesterday morning... dun feel good in a way for the whole afternoon.Its All about the shop (-_-). Beside playing cards in the showflat with my "old school" collgues^^.Nothing Seems better... Wasting of time working on A Sunday doing nothing... Went home straight after work. kinda boring day. But it became fun when my lovely sis accompany me out for a walk~ we went down town.. took Love Getty !!! haha.. Feel so old to do all this. But it feels real good taking photos again! Went for shopping and had a great dinner @Yoshinoya^^ Bought 4 Sweet Underwear too =X haha sorry... but its really pretty... cant control but to be proud of it! lols...

Well, its a Monday morning again... Back to office... doing nothing & acting busy. 2 more months to go!!! Jia you to me!!!

Best company ... My lovely mei mei ^^

16 years of sisters love! I treasure you :)

Best Meal of the day ^^

2006-11-26T04:39:00.000-08:00

Every moments counts ... we know that :)

Never say I love you if u dun mean it...
I Love You & I mean it ^-^

2006-11-22T10:47:00.000-08:00

Finally! I'm Free to blog!!! Had a busy week. Proposals, reports, researches, project launches & duties.......... Thought I could catch a lil more rest after production. But it seems like I'm getting even more busy than before!! that's more to come...

Latest News : I'm having my own business very soon! today is the handover of keys. Excited!! but i've got no time for the handover today. Attachment restricting me -_- Mum went to collect the key and she's also doing the cleaning up. I feel so bad didnt help in anyway... finally tml is my one & only precious off day... Guess I'll be busy with my shop deco and all...

Oh ya~ talked for so long, You guys should be wondering wat business am I doing right? wahaha... I'm Opening ......................................................................
JJ's Beauty Nail Parlour!
Its a shophouse in my neigbourhood ~ I'm targeting the whole neighbourhood! Wahahha~~~ but that's not the most exciting news... more to come..! as ive said its a shop house, which means that its a two storey "shop" & "house"` the top floor is currently empty.... thats my dream tt im striving for~
JJ's DANCE studio!!!
but its still far to go lar... still dreaming on...

Okay... back to my personal nail parlour~ why im saying "personal" simply bcoz im paying the rental myself!!! YEa Myself -_-"' no more shopping, facial, dolling up myself =/ SAFE MONEY~~~
but I'm only renting a small portion of the shop~ the rest are my mum's spa and hair studio....And mummy is good enough not too charge me the actual rental amount... She wants me to start deep down from the root which is to pay all expenses and responsible with my own profit and lost for my own business. On the other hand she's guiding me through the risks and after all I'm still being well protected ^_^ thnks mum...

Viewers here... please support me ya! come down and I'll promise to give the best offer! Especially christmas & New Year is around the corner! its time to pamper your pretty nails! ^_^ hees... so do look out for my upcoming news soon kies!

gosh... back to my proposal again -_-"'

cyaz
Ciaoz!!! lalalala~~

jsut for u

2006-11-18T10:10:00.000-08:00

This song is just for you baby :)

2006-11-05T16:14:00.000-08:00

3days past... how haf u been my dear? hopes all well in the jungle. Everyday i've been checking the weather forecast. Atfirst u asked mi to pray tt everyday rain. But my collegue told mi if it rains, u will sure get foot rot! which will be very painful!! gosh~ now ive been praying not to rain over there~!! but the weather forecast says the outlook for pulau tekong will be showering for the next 3 dayz =../ my poor bitterman... 5 more days to see u. Promise to shower you with lots of love when u r out~!!! but my soup like in the failing end... not very nice to drink=/ *mayb i go buy for u safer... haha...
i didnt haf time to blog everyday for u. sorry. but hope the msges tt i text will still motivates u ya. Miss you my love...

2006-11-02T00:52:00.000-08:00

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/color.php?c0=1&c1=5&c2=4&c3=3&c4=7&c5=0&c6=2&c7=6
I Find it quite true.... gif it a try ~

You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to 'All things bright and beautiful'. This personifies a caring person, a person who 'needs' and indeed 'needs to be needed'.Of late, everything seems to be going so slowly - far slower than you anticipated - and this is causing you much anxiety and frustration. It would appear that there is little you can do about the series of events that now seem to be taking place. In spite of the fact that you feel like 'giving up' - don't. Take a deep breath and start over again and you will find that eventually the expression 'All's well that ends well' will have an extra special meaning for you.Compromise is the name of the game at this time and it is the only way you can avoid being deprived of the love and affection you so rightly deserve -so soften up a little, be flexible.You are trying to prove yourself - not only to yourself but also to everyone around you. There is much that you would like to say and do but the situation warrants self-restraint and that is the last thing that you have on your mind. It would seem that you have an unsatisfied need to ally yourself with others whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to stand out from the crowd. This is subjecting you to considerable stress but you tend to stick to your attitudes despite lack of appreciation. Of course, you are finding the situation uncomfortable and would like nothing better but to break away from it but you don't like the idea of compromise. Your main problem is that you are unable to resolve the situation because you continually postpone making the necessary decisions. You feel that if you make the wrong choice this would lead to such opposition that you would not be able to command the esteem of others. It is essential that those around you are prepared to comply with your wishes.You would like to be respected and valued for yourself and this can only be achieved from within a close and harmonious relationship.

happy 1 mnth

2006-11-01T01:03:00.000-08:00

happy first month love.

thanks for the flower :) Sweet...

Haiz

2006-10-30T12:25:00.000-08:00

My fear draws nearer each day...

The thing that im worry of has becoming reality...

the one

2006-10-27T09:46:00.000-07:00

2006-10-27T02:10:00.000-07:00

My love...

There's only you in my life
The only thing that's right
You're every breath that I take
You're every step I make
And I want to share
All my love with you
No one else will do
And your eyes
They tell me how much you care

You will always be
My endless love
Two hearts that beat as one
Our lives have just begun
And forever
I'll hold you close in my arms
I can't resist your charms

And love
I'd play the fool
For you
I'm sure
You know I don't mind
'Cause baby
You mean the world to me
I know I've found in you
My endless love
And love
I'd play the fool
For you
I'm sure
That you know I don't mind
'Cause baby
You'll be the only one
'Cause no one can deny
This love I have inside
And I'll give it all to you
My love
My endless love...

prodcution fear

2006-10-26T08:57:00.000-07:00

Tired, Nervous, Excited & Worry.

Production in15 days time...

Tired : work & dance. limited time for me. injured back and restless body
Nervous : family, friends r coming to support me! die... must work hard
Excited : First production~ gosh... Jia you everyone~ should be damn dope that day
Worry : How if i cant dance for 4 items? how if i forget my steps & not enough mo qi? how if i wear the wrong costume out that day? how if dear cant take it after field camp trainings? how if my back cant tAke it? how if.... Feel so not prepared ...

That's when i love you

2006-10-23T13:07:00.000-07:00

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love youI love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love youI love you, endlessly

And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love youWhen nothing you do can change my mind

The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,WhenI love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you I love you a little more each time

And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love youI love you, more than youll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind

The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,When I love you no matter what

Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,When I love you no matter what

No matter what... =)

2006-10-23T02:15:00.000-07:00

Crying inside...

edited pics

2006-10-18T18:39:00.000-07:00

~Yawnz~ Finally reached office 30mins ago... Late for work again -_- my $12 *flew off*
Edited pics till late night yesterday... lucky got uncle song you Acc me on the fone (or m i the 1 accing him??)* wahaha...

Proudly present pics i edited :

1. Combi Photos From bangkok

2. "the Radar Pose"

3. The dance floor

Theroy test...

2006-10-14T09:19:00.000-07:00

oh noo~~~ im sorry everyone~! =( i miss my theory lessons again!!!! Its my 6th lesson missed... ive jus let my $120 fly away!!!! Argh!!! sorry!! =( Esp Dear... im so sorry... u make an effort to wake mi up when i dun think u can use phone so early in tekong right =( Sorry!!! AHHH My $120!!! Ok...I swear! No matter how tired i am! Tml i will chiong all my theory k! =X i sound so ah lian... oh no... But gosh!! i cant believe i just let $120 Fly away like that!!! @!*#@!$?/!

@work

2006-10-13T13:00:00.000-07:00

just had my lunch... now back office preparing to go down for the launch briefing... hope can close a deal tml ;p its a dream on thing la.. but who knows... i might be the millionaire tml~ lolz... siaoz.. feeling much better today... recieved a msg early in the morning from bitterman=) tt reali cheers me up alot... everything will be fine soon... very soon... **wishing & hoping**

...

2006-10-12T23:39:00.000-07:00

I thought everything gonna be better ...
Why cant I be right for once...

After a friend's forward msg last night,
Im Sure... im very sure... im waiting for him...
The only him in my life now...
I thought i can pull through it.
I'm strong, i always believe i can pull thru it... When must you hurt me now?
I'm not your toy anymore!!! Im not a Toy! Pls Remeber!! Im not! im not....
It get me sometime to start back on track myself...
Pls... Let me off... I'm really scared now...You are too scary... You know I'm weak n helpless now. you noe tt! y u need to do tis to me now? =.../
why... why must you push me back off track. why?
Wat the point msging me all this? wats the point? i see no point... Serious...

Yes.. its reali unpleasent to read ur long msg early in the morning...
Its too late.. really too late doing all this thing.. Please Understand

Yes.. I finally cried... Finally! I CRIed~ Out Loud! You Happy?!
But I'm not touched in anyway... I find it helpless... not me... you are really helpless
Why Must you do this to me?
Maybe you love seeing me cry...

Why Must you come in & Out of my life as and when You feel like it?

Why Cant you just leave me alone???? Forever... Why!!
You can harm me in anyway u like... But Dont u dream on hurting him... i wont forgive u forever...
Im Really In Pain now... Its Tearing Me Apart....
As for u ( girl ) im sorry... n i noe u will treat him better than anyone ... including me... i haf no confident to compare with u... ive chose tis path n accidentally hurt u. but i cant give up now... it'll hurt more ppl... n him... but i promise... if his choice is u one day... i will respect his decision... I'm sorry... i will do anything for u in anyway. Pls tell me what i can do.. i promise... i will accept anything... ::: Breathless :::

**** Bitterman... believe me... im still waiting... *****
Chilliger fall too deep for u already. But Promise... to respect evry decision of yours =.) Goodnight

Smile

2006-10-11T02:09:00.000-07:00

Im trying to smile...
Its my second smile... im sorry... i lost my first smile...
but i promise...

i will still smile...

bjon say i Must stay happy so that ppl around me will be happy...
I promise...

No matter wat... i will still smile...

But my guilt cant go away... I'm sorry... im not breaking down... cos i wont allow myself to... I will stay strong , jj is strong =..)

I miss you... I will stay strong for you too.. cos i believe & i trust ... You ...

Im sorry ariel...

2006-10-10T03:00:00.000-07:00

I didnt mean to hurt u in anyway... its my fault, i'm feeling real bad... i'm too selfish... i reali hope im the one who recieve all the hurt... Really, sincerely sorry... I'm reali lost now... i haf no idea wat i can do to make u feel better... I'm sorry girl... I'm sorry... Wat can i do now to bring back ur smile n let mi be the one who suffer n not you! Pls give me a sign...
Im Sorry...
Sorry really really sorry... deep down my heart ive nv meant to hurt anyone... im jus too selfish... pls let mi haf all the hurts instead of u suffering it... sorry, really sorry (-__-..)

2006-10-09T01:08:00.000-07:00

12 more days...
Happy to recieve ur call today... You sound tired... Hope u doing fine... worried...

Sat 7th oct

2006-10-07T00:43:00.000-07:00

Sat 7oct

Hazy day... Its 130 psi out there... got 7th month's feeling, too hazy alrdy=)
Missing someone its quite hard to handle. coz it's abit lost of wat can be done.
Thanks daph for that hug last night (=
Thanks Nra peeps still keep me warm company.

And i miss you...Hope all well and smooth.

13days more to go...

work, launching andrew road bungalow

2006-10-06T01:34:00.000-07:00

Ot today!!! launching four exclusive bungalows at andrew road... jj and anne @ work...

for u

2006-10-05T09:43:00.000-07:00

Meant for bitterman

Too much to put it into words... the prince that opens up the walls of darkness... i dreamt of it before... and i knew it will be happening. Bitterman makes it happen.

Things that you've said, i've memorised.

"Dont know", "nevermind", "i forgot" makes u special...

The trust just builds up all these times that we've been through...

I forgot something, you reminds me.
I lost something, you calm me down.
I fall asleep, you looked after me.
I snore loudly, you just look at me ( lol )
I wana bath, u fillup the bath tub for me.
I'm hungry, you get food for me.
I'm cold, you huged me.
I'm lost, you lead me.

............
...............
................. You, completes Me ...

Save the last kiss... this our story...

A Year back

Kakis we become ...

Christmas Dinner...

Mary J... We sweat together...

MAry J, We trained hard

Drunk together

Club & Compete together

Uncle vs aunty

Enjoyed Each other's company

Just Feel Comfortable

That's when it slowly started

We support each other

It all started here

The Smile Comes Naturally

Can you feel it?

Lock & Key Are meant to be together

Treasuring the time together

Never let go

Thats My BitterMan

Chilligirl Will be waiting...

dance floor audition

2006-09-25T18:07:00.000-07:00

Would like to just mention the happy moment on 23rd sept earlier part....

The dance floor audition day @ youth park

-= 6 On Limit =-

Teriyaki Girls

Bjon Me & Ken

Me & Ken

Me & Bjon

Why Joy always ends with sorrows... it may be easy to forget... but it remain inside forever... will i still love to move as before? im doubting myself.

Moving on with no passion

Frm lynn

2006-09-17T12:14:00.000-07:00

I admire her. Love reading "Your thoughts and mine" She always inspire me... =)

From her:

Last nite, WE completed the jog together. :)
Thy far, he has never waited for me. Well, usually men and women's paces are different. Especially if its a 10 km run. Even when we went to run last week, despite the fact that he said we will run together, somehow what was left after the first 1.5 km was his silouette that just diminished into the dark.
I ran off first. And he was left behind to stretch since I needed a headstart in order to complete the run at the same time. By starting first, that meant I won't get to run with him again. Its really no big deal. I have always been running alone and I never really liked to run with a companion due to the different pace. However, a companion does feels good. It pushes you to keep going and you will not give up as easily.
That 10 km run is somewhat like how I would view a relationship.
10 km is 10 km. Its not a sprint run of 100m where you got to make a dash. The relationship is like this 10 km journey. You start slow in order to have the energy to go the distance. If you sprint at the beginning, you only find yourself out of breath by the 2nd km. Soon, you may have stitches and you may just give up by the 5th km!
Last night, i turned round and waited for him. He knew I was waiting so when we met, we continued to run at the same pace. All it takes is for him to run a little slower and for me to try to rev at higher revolutions. Once we both got the momentum, we were happily going 1 km, 2km, 3km.....10km.
Afterall, you still complete the course. The destination is the same. But this time round, the difference is you did it with someone. Along the way, I had some pain in my inner ankle but I just wanted to keep going. Similarly, he was not in top form last nite and at some points, I could have overtook him and ran ahead. Knowing him well, he would have gave up but i guess he stuck it on because I was there. I know men's ego, I made sure that I stayed one step behind sometimes to spur him on to lead.
Relationship is about going fast sometimes, but you should slow down sometimes. One two, One two, before you know it, you're at the same destination. :) You still burn the same calories whether you run at 10km/hr or 12 km/hr. At least you know should you fall, there is someone there to help you up. When you're tired, there is someone to cheer you on. If it rains, you won't have to hide in the shelter and cold alone.
You may choose to pursue your career and leave your love ones behind. All in the name of a better future. Before you know it, you may have disappeared into the dark and your loved one could have fallen without your knowledge. By the time she gets to the destination to find you, you may have lost the patience to wait or she could have been helped by someone else along the way. Its always possible to slow down a little and as the slower one, you must make the effort to try to pace wider or go at higher revolutions.
When you meet at the finishing line together, you celebrate the victory together. You wipe each other's perspiration off and head to 7-11 for a 100 plus and a H-2-O. What a sense of satisfaction. All the fatigue and aches earlier just din seem to matter anymore. :) Hand in hand you stroll and you talk about the day. You share your problems and I listen. The breeze sweeping past your face. Its really a good feeling.
You just know you can do this for a long long time.

Sprain toe

2006-09-15T02:18:00.000-07:00

Knocking off soon. Going to visit sinseh later... ALONE... sobz... tts so scary... too much to take man. But no choice i Must go. Must let it recover at the soonest possible time. Have been working the whole day with pig toes. The Swell getting worst, blood clogs and blue black are getting more obvious spreading to a wider surface. so ugly.
Collegues r good to me today (as they always are) & My supervisor din want me to walk much too. so have been sitting on the chair most of the time.
Coming to work frm home tis morning was the worst senario. Having real hard time walking, adding on with ppl rushing for work, one guy step on my sprained foot!! gosh.. that was...... argh~ but i din scream though its reali painful. (too many ppl in the train u see) or maybe because Jj is brave! hee...
haiz...
Anyway, I's sure later will be worst, cant imagine what will the sinseh do =.../

But Jj is brave~ bleahz

rotten luck

2006-09-14T18:20:00.000-07:00

Exhausted Body

Injured Back

Serious lack Of Sleep

Sprained Ankle

Swollen toe....

Wat esle is coming... Give me a sign

I Hate It ....

Who Will Be here Right Now? Im Reali tired

2006-09-14T02:58:00.000-07:00

I'm tired...

2006-09-10T10:59:00.000-07:00

The ultimate motivator is defeat. Once you are defeated, you have nowhere to go except the top.
The only thing stopping you is yourself
There is no guarantee that tomorrow will come. So do it today.
Intentions don't count, but action's do.
Don't let who you are, stunt what you want to be.
Success is the greatest motivator.
Your goals must be clear, but the guidelines must be flexible.

wedding planner

2006-09-08T10:26:00.000-07:00

Hold her tight
Leave her cute n sweet msges created by yrself
Look into her eyes when u talk to her
Make her feel she's the only girl in ur life
Just walk around with her
Just be by her side when she is down
Forgive her for her mistake
Let her fall asleep in ur arms
Pat her gently when she fall asleep
Bring her close to you when she is lost
Stay up for her when she is sick
Watch her favorite movie
Kiss her forehead
Take photo with her
Nid not call her everynight but text her during the busy day
Kiss her infront of your friend
Trust her over everyone else
Buy her meaningful presents but no need to be the most expensive ones
Get her mad & kiss her
Fall asleep and let her be by ur side
Let her be with you during soccer matches
She will be your cheer leader when u play
Tease her and say u love her when she about to tease u back
Let her wear your clothes

Complicated? yes... i think so too... thats whats the reason you, Completes Me.
Good friends think the same as u do
Couples learn to do the things they dun do
Do it only when u mean it...
Play hard work hard love hard

Was chatting about wedding planner's job today with my collegues.
why couples wants a wedding planner to help out?
If u want to propose to ur girlfriend to be ur wife, will u consult professinal love doctors to plan for u? Before those who's answer is no...

1. You bring ur girlfriend to a romantic restaurant , buy her favorite flower, ordered her favorite dishes, plays her favorite music. Leave her by the table awhile and say to the gents.
The next moment, ur girlfriend see u outside the 19 storey restaurat hanging there with the supprt of a rope, holding in his hands ur favorite bear with a big card "My love, will u marry me?" She teared with joy and touched with true feelings.

"Above Were Set up by the wedding planner... sweet rite?=)

How bout this?

2 . "I know I always seem to end your day with something negative... So I'm here to start it off positive:) Every Sunlight that hits you in the morning... Is a reminder A sign that as long as I'm here, I'll Provide you warmth ;) "

So Which one do you think its better? 1 or 2?

I will Choose 2=) How bout you?

at work

2006-09-08T00:35:00.000-07:00

"Hi good afternoon... this is Jj calling from CKS property consultant blah blah blah blah....." my neck dropping... Its fifth day of attachment.. n im feeling extremely tired.. 8am-6pm work, 7pm-midnight dance... Not much strength left in me... haha... but its fun blogging in the office when i suppose to do my work... My project for his half a yr attachment is on Heritage View... Quite a nice Condo... cool... but exhausted.... alright get back to work... will blog soon~ when im free... Promise~! Ciaoz

by him

2006-09-04T09:42:00.000-07:00

Actions non verbal... Deeds not words...

Tots

2006-09-02T16:40:00.000-07:00

If only i'm the one and only "her" in your heart... but I noe i'm not...

Sick n tired

2006-08-30T10:18:00.000-07:00

Not feeling good today...

Bad migrain, back hurts, bruises on both knee caps, lack of sleep... getting worst each day..
Felt so ugly n shag. Mummy say i'm looking bad nowadays. Everyone wants to be pretty & look good everyday.Who dont? But i just dont have the fortune to stay pretty n SLIM... haha... though its a sad thing la... but sounds funny... the beauty comes from inside isnt it? lolx.. so who cares if im ugly, short n FAT~!

"just too bored & feeling shitty today"
Support needed...

blogging 30sept

2006-08-29T15:04:00.000-07:00

Very Emo... for nothing but just a little tired i guess. wish to lay back, go somewhere out of the usual place. I want holidays!!! haiz... attachment is coming soon. i dun reali look forward for that, though i'm looking forward to shop for my office clothings~ haha...

I really wish to take a break. Just two days will be enough for me.

Have you ever feel puzzled inside before? like when you felt something in you that makes you think alot, but you just don't know how to express out in words. I always do. I've been thinking of something lately. I cant express out. Jus feel not right.

I miss you

2006-08-26T23:30:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time, you thought you had the world at your feet. It was as if you were walking on a rainbow.

Though you felt unsteady at times. you liked that feeling. You felt unsteady because you were head over heels in love.

A man/woman gave you such euphoria and then took it away. You're not crying because you've lost him/her.

You're crying because you can no longer feel love. You're crying because you've lost faith in love. You've come to realise that love can vanish in the twinkling of an eye.

Having experienced such a love, how can you hold back your tears?

What is the feeling of missing someone that are still in reality and one that are not...
Will it be the same?

I'm missing you at the moment. But you are no longer here by my side protecting me thru thick & thin.

I miss the time we jog together, catch my favorite movie every weekend, bringing me to everywhere i wish to go. I miss your snore when you are soundly asleep. I miss your smile when i smile at you. I miss the teddy bear hug you'd give me every night before sleep. I miss the gentle pat of urs when i woke up from a nightmare.

I miss you Daddy...

The Sweetest Moment...

2006-08-22T10:33:00.000-07:00

I'm back ... you, complete me ...

2006-08-20T09:36:00.000-07:00

It has been a year since i've blog... didnt intend to touch tis blog anymre until she hits my tots... decide to blog again. letting u noe ( yes u... the one browsing my blog now) that nothing in this world is fair. everything is imperfect... u jus haf to make the imperfect world perfectly yourself. cos i belief the angels are always by ur side... read tis... n feel it urself...

You, complete me ...
(*by lynn)

We often lay down a lot of criterias for our partners to fulfil. Most of the time, we thought we would like someone pretty similar with us in terms of interest or character in order to 'connect'. I beg to differ.
I am in search of someone who completes me. The definition of 'complete' is- having all the necessary components or parts. In terms of a relationship, i think it will be really boring to find someone who shares the exact same interest or hobbies.

I find its important for 2 persons to progress together. They must be able to share something from their own world. He will be someone who has something I do not. For instance, as a dreamer. I have so much love to give and I would like to spread sunshine to this world. I need a deep thinker who holds my 2 feet to the ground and remind me that this world is not perfect.

Before I march down that aisle, I hope I will be able to tell my other half, ''You, complete me'' Somehow I will be able to find that perfect position with him when we lie on the couch and watch tv and somehow doze off together. He will be the one who makes me laugh when I am feeling down. When I can't seem to remember my dad's birthday, he will be the one who will remind me. Why? Because he will be the one who is interested in my well being and my life and watch me grow old.
We are all reduced to ashes someday. By then, it makes everyone on this earth equal. Don't be someone you are not just to complete him. Just be yourself. See yourself as liquid or a gel. Somehow you will meet someone who loves you for who you are and you will feel like you're 2 pieces of gel that juz come together. That's when 2 worlds unite and you have so much to share till the end of time.

Its really silly to want to be someone you are not just because you are afraid to lose him. I said this before, if you are afraid to lose someone, you actually lost him already.

Its actually not hard to be a gel. Somehow when the chemistry is right, you will be amazed at how flexible you become to fit the other half. :) I choose not to believe that there is only 1 exact mould that fits another mould at some other parts of this earth. If he chooses to judge you and change you, he probably doesn't love you.
I am someone who likes to inspire and develop. All i want is to be the sunshine and pillar behind my man. During this process, he will be my moonlight and pillow whenever I am tired from it all.
Not everyone finds the other half. At least for me, I know I will rather be alone.

''I love you just the way you are.'' Simple yet true. Chemistry is an amazing thing. You can be the best analyst in the world but this is something you just cannot use your head to rationalise. You will soon discover it destroys the romance element. Just follow your heart. Be happy. Life is too short for you to be thinking ALL THE TIME.
Easier said than done. The more heartaches you go through, the more you think. Its tiring, I know.
I would still like to see the glass half full. Always reminding people to keep looking up.
Just go with the flow.... soon, you will find someone who completes you. He could just be someone around you.

* Silly girl, i hope u r fine now... cos ive been thru the same thing before... n im still happily standing infront of u rite now =) Smile...

Sign off Jj *mood level 3/5 ^_^

=)

2005-09-21T01:02:00.000-07:00

~Everything comes to an end for the time being.. exams over le.. suntec finals also end le.. saturday was a great day.. im reali touched. all my friends came.. esp AO1 classmates.. reali so touched... not forgeting my neighbours as well as my lovely dear with 2 of his bro.. thnkx everyone for ya support.. ~

~Now.. holiday le.. reali mus rest my back.. it reali hurts alot.. cos this whole yr, no time for mi to rest at all.. training all the way.. tis mnth mus reali rest le.. cos funkamania dance comp is coming soon~ so mus haf well prepared body.. hope funka will be my best performance after all these comp i went thru=) jia you~

Suntec Dance 2005 (NRA Lush)

On Prelims (heats 2) 27august

On Finals 17 september

2005-08-27T03:30:00.000-07:00

Miss Lonely is mee.. Everything has changed to something i have to accept.. i can onli choose to take it or leave it.. Life is unfair.. but i haf to carry on with it. Can i have more choices.. When can my tears stop rolling.. when will this all end.. Im breaking down, reali breaking down.. i jus need someone.. i need u badly.. dun u noe? Pls someone lend my a shoulder.. im breaking down soon..

2005-08-04T08:43:00.000-07:00

Hope our Friendship will last forever.. thankful to have you guys in my life.. U6~ the Best Palz~

KL trip

2005-04-10T02:28:00.000-07:00

yOyoyo eVeryone.. i can say i haf a busy week this week.. atlast.. there's time for me to be at home lsacking.. went to KL for a performance trip with my school.. cool trip i can say.. really enjoys alot especially went with all my hip hop kakis. we really have a great time there.~! NRA rOckz~!

1st Day 4th April @ Johor high School

~taken outside Royal Bintan Hotel Where we staying for the next 4days

~taken in the bus on the way to johor high school for our first performance for the trip

~tAken outside the high school car park

~group photo in the high school ava theathre

~In the hotel bath hao le.. gg downstair's pub lor~

~In the Lift haha.. excited kids~

~taken outside the pub with two pretty singer in KL

~Yawn tired le.. lets go back to sleep~

2nd day 5th april @ Hin Hua High School

~see the no. of audience sittings.. sooo many ppl watching us later

~Dinner time~!

3Rd Day Performance @ Confusion Secondary Private School

~see my tiring black eye.. got pimple le~! but.. still enjoying myself.. hehe

~soo touched.. my lovely daddy came all the way from singapore to supper us~!

~haha the 1 on the left is our Bus driver for the 4 days~ Xin ku ni le~

~H2O crew from the school.. nice breakdance move they haf..

4th Day 7th April, Going back to Singapore yook 6 hours bus.. including last min shopping~

SummAry Of LAst week

2005-03-29T21:34:00.000-08:00

ThiS fEw wEeks wAs Super Busy On dAnce And eXams..AtLast ExaMs Over.. So uPdate mY Blog On tHe PAst fEw wEeks sTuffs tAt Ive Did..

1stLy wAs MabeL's bDay On 17 March (tHursday)

tHen Was cHrIs bAday On 18 March(fRIday) At ChinAbLack

On tWo sAt tRaining fOR Psc Nitez AuditIon In sTudIo & EspLanade

VivIen's bDay On 25 March~fRidaY~

Psc nIte AudItion At MedIAcOrp On 27 March ~SundAy~

Shopping with U6

2005-03-09T09:56:00.000-08:00

sHopping In tOwn..wIth U6

~B4 cRosSinG tHe rOad~

~At wIsmA wAitIng fOr vIvieN~

~aNne aNd Me @ ciNelEsuRe~

~One More..sAy cHeezE!~

Normal day..

2005-03-07T06:21:00.000-08:00

Well well well.. today nothing special, went to school and come back hme.. haha.. took some pic during class time.. tk a look! ^-^

~bored in class come tk a pic of my hp n my cutie doggy~

~Rain's Piggy oso came to join me~~

~dEn cOme aLong wIth Mabel's EeOr~

~ohh, AnnE's sqUirReL~

~Look! Zach's F**** bEar iS heRe tOo..!!~

~hMm NotHing tO tk le.. tK myself~

~mI aNd RAIn!~

reunion dinner with BO1

2005-02-07T08:46:00.000-08:00

wOohOo.. i dun feel like toking much..bt it is jus simply wonderful today.. with my coolest BO1 classmates having reunion dinner together at marina bay haha.. jus feel like showing off picx n tok less for now..!~ check it out~

~WaTIng fOr tHe rEsT at cOntRoL sTaTION

~mE mAbEL And VIVIEN

~Let U6 sTarT e fIrst pRawn 4 the dAe~

~oPps..aLL gO tk fooD lEt mI staRt first~

~hAhA, 3 "tA cHi guI"

~jAckey, mE, Rain N sTevE

~mAbel, viviEn, mI n Anne

~haIyo jj aR tk foto oso Cant stoP eatinG

~wOohoo sAy chEeze~

~zAch "blAnga" uS dRINK!~

~yOz BO1 gRp foTo~

~Last pIC fOR the dAy aT d bOwLing alleY~

pRetty dAy

2005-02-03T21:11:00.000-08:00

feeling today r not bad.. had a gd day yesterday woke up at abt 11am den go sch for internet E-business test..was so funny..almost the whole class nv study for tt, all on new yr mood le.den everyone was trying to copy.. those cant jus anyhow ti gam.. my daddy jackey even mre funny,he brought the Uno dice into the room n throwing the dice for ans.. i reali haf a great n steady class.After test i went to youth park to get ready for tt nite performance,its for tsunami charity show. It was a great nite.. thankful for those who came down n support mi=)

~both pic tAken at youTh pArk

woke up in the morning today and came online my sister show mi my newphew's pic.. haha reali brighten my day soo much, now waiting for my 4 siao cha bo friend to call to meet out.. pRetty day..

diary 29th jan 2005

2005-01-29T02:05:00.000-08:00

now is 6.06pm in the evening.. was writing notes for my law common test tis coming monday.. kinda stress, at last funkamania was over. Reali glad tt nra altitude won and alvin got the best male dancer.. so proud of nra. Reali having fun yesterday. Im so proud to be part of the nra family. Now mus stop dancing first le, and concentrate on my studies. Soo scared n worry tt will fail tis common test. Was reali slacking tis semester. My auto-cad was reali bad last week.. hmm.. lots of foto wana load onto my blog, but havent receive fotos frm my friends yet.. cant wait to see those pics.. =)

~boring stayin at hme.. but still is a cosy place to stay quiet.. havent tok whole day since i reached hme in the morning cos no one was at hme.. sobx sobx~

flag day tsunami-affected areas

2005-01-23T09:02:00.000-08:00

~AudRey And Mi afTer the fLag day~

tOday is a tiring yet meaning full day..woke up in the morning at 7am to prepare to meet my classmates as well as ppl volenteered for the flag day helping the tsunami-affected areas by rasing funds for them at douby ghuat control at 8.45am.. haha, bt as usual im late=p
I reach park mall at abt 9.30am for registration. After collecting the cans a grp of us went to haf our breakfast. We started asking for donations at abt 10.45am. Vivien, zach n myself stood outside paragon for the day. rain,seok yu,pei ying, wei hui, steve and nichalos went to bugis junction. Anne, audrey and jackey were at orchard mrt station. Today was a humid day. Standing under the sun asking for donations for the whole afternoon was a tough job, bt yet all of us enjoys it alot. Hope tt the funds tt we've rasied today can help the tsunami affected areas to rebuild their livings=)

baby nephew

2005-01-21T07:31:00.000-08:00

See!! my bAby nEphEw Reginald Huey Tan Ian Jay~~ sOoo cUte~
~~cOol huh.. why sOo many ppl takIng my pIc~ I sLping Lei dUn dIsturb!~

~Ok lA SmILe~

~aLrIte.. tIme tO sLp aGain~

~hAiyO wHy u ALL Like mE sOo muCh.. Let mE sLp~ If nOt I bOx u hUh~ ~

diary 20 jan 2005

2005-01-20T01:38:00.000-08:00

hMm.. now is like 5.40pm in the evening.. jus woke up not long.. this morning got to craw out from bed at 7am to go to school.. i was late n took a cab down.. In d end guess wat.. i only got 45min tutorial cos another class was cancelled.. arghh.. waste my money wor.. now waiting for the time to pass so tt can meet my hip hop (nra) kakis at bugis to go to one of our senior hse for bbq!~~ coolZ.. got things to eat le.. kekex..
Exams is coming in a week time le.. my competition is coming too.. so stress to cope with both studies and training.. haizx... bt mus jia you loR=)

lecture foto

2005-01-13T07:29:00.000-08:00

~hEe..Its AcC lEctuRe.SeE mY hAIR dyEd bLack LE! guAI ma??.hMmm..sErIous ma?

~YaWN~..leCtuRe toO lOng lE..cOme,tK a Pic oF mY lAptOp!

~yEah LecTuRe eNd LoR..e aI meI dRe wAna tK fOto aGain hAhA

~pAck hAo bAg lOr..Let'S go..SHoPPIng~~