schizophrenia
according to dictionary.com, schizophrenia is a state characterized by the coexistence of contradictory or incompatible elements.reiterates my current state to a T, albeit not clinically.
I'm feeling so overwhelmed by all sorts of emotions right now i don't even know what i'm feeling anymore.
had a tiff with my mum yesterday.. felt very hurt cos here we are trying our very best to get her better and there she is not understanding her priorities - to get her health back into shape.
i'm frustrated and worried at the same time. on one hand, i don't want to lose her. on the other, i'm just VERY VERY tired of fighting this battle with an unknown monster by the name of CANCER.
I don't know how to fight it. It's beyond me.. but i want to win this battle soooooo bad!
If it was something i can just kill with my bare hands, i will gladly do it for my mum. but i can't and i need her cooperation to increase the chances..I'm trying my very best to empathize with her situation of not having anyone to help her with things and having to manage on her own but is it not already crystal clear that it would be way better to lose the money than her health?
i am so mentally drained i fear i will lose my mind.
i. am. so. tired.
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ABOVE :
taken from my elder sis's blog written last night.
wat can i do now? its not in our control. money or health is the issue i reali sa no words.
frustrating. YES it definately is.
Pls be fair to us. we lost so many things in life. i dun need the wealth. i need the love.
i hope she understands. we need her more than anything...
pls dun gif up sis. thnks for doing the most my dear younger sis. hope u understands we r trying the best. and pls dun gif up da jie. i promise im supporting.
Name : Chan Jia Jin , JJ
Bdae: 21st MaY 1986
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