"Sorry" Seems to be the hardest word isnt it? Just trying not to regret on anything. i hope all of u too. I Just walked home from school. Thought alot for that 2hours journey. I think about my past , present and future. If today is my last day in the world, who will i be calling or looking for? Who will i apologise to ? I came to a conclusion when i got to my house lift. Im sorry to dad. That I cant be as Strong and as forgiving as him . When he left this world. I'm just too late to say sorry that I didnt treasure you. I'm sorry...
It is indeed the hardest word for those who will regret later in life, maybe.
Very complicated starting statement. I was just thinking what the lyricist of this song was feeling when he penned this song.
'What do I do to make you love me? What do I do to make you stay? What do I do when lightning strikes me?'
Ha! I just hope when lightning really strikes and you have only one breath left, you will not feel SORRY for yourself. For not having that courage to say sorry when you were alive and you have to bring this regret to your next life.
I am someone who does not wish to live with regrets. You never lived until you tried. Even if it fails, you have seeked closure. I think closures are important for you to move on full force in life.
All the questions left unspoken. Answers left buried within. How can one live this way? I would seek to find the truth, even if it hurts. This kinda pain are only temporary. It will heal rather than the pain of being around the person you once love and still loves but she is just so far.
If someone chose to keep quiet, there's only two reason. He/she doesnt know how to espress or he/she simply just giving up.
I'm leaving with lots of unspoken for both the reason. It wasnt me, i knew it clearly. World has become more and more practical. Selfishness,hurts and polluted the relationships around friends and ppl u care (maybe b4), Cos now it has being destroyed due to selfishness. I use to treasure , use to love everyone that i felt it reali worth it to. It's been striking me wrong. No one will care abt ur self esteem. No one will care if u are drown in the sea not becos they duno how to swim. its just they dun wana get wet themself? thats reali a scary reason. Mayb its my bad to take it so seriously. maybe im wrong. but, im tired to think so much anymore. cos who even care? its sometimes gd to leave unspoken when u think it no longer meaningful for it. mayb onli i think so=) i will smile and as if nothing happening. buts its trap in me.
Dad use to tell me. dun stop giving even u get cheated by ppl 8 out of 10times . becos the 2 that u helped will be much appreciated for giving. you safe two lifes though eight had stapped u from behind. As long as things that dun kills you, just make you stronger. I always believe in that. Even now. being cheated hurts alot. bt i might still be doing it. cos i always belief wat dad says. things that dun kill you makes you stronger. and im always stronger than wat i reali am. maybe not always. but atleast i manage to live on my past 7yrs without dads protection. so many different kinds of ppl ive met. never ever forget .
Human beings naturally take things for granted. Why must its b the excuse to escape? I love the start of friendship when its fresh. i love the middle when its true. i hate the end when things changes.
"Tian xie mei you bu shan de yan si" It's a chinese quotes. Meaning there's no one gathering that doesnt part/separates. Everyone will leave. Even families and love ones. I dun wish to stay in this reality, so many came to my life. Let me felt the floating feeling. And eventually left after a while. I treasure still. becos i knew the begining are always so real. I miss and i cry cos im reali tresuring. n i noe i can onli treasure and keep it in my memories when its gone.
Sorry really isn't such a difficult word. Er, by the way, asians have a bad habit of saying sorry till its meaningless. Start observing today. Say it when you really mean it and someone will feel the importance of this word. :)
baby. thnks for giving me this white xmas:) I love you
& everyone... I Lost my phone-_-
My wishes had nv come true. same goes for this year. Merry Xmas Everyone :)
back hurts early in the morning... so tired i wana slp!!! now is only 9.22am~ gosh... so many hours to go... i need food... why cant the office just give us free macdonalds breakfast everyday?? how about sausage muffin with egg meal change to ice milo? hmm... yu kun toast will be nice on the alternate dayz... gosh... i'm getting more and more hungry!!!
my back so so so so painful :( doctor bluff me! i think he just wants to earn more of my money. so need me to be in pain~ evil him !! :(
x'mas coming... but im broke for any xmas shopping... im so sorry to so many ppl... haiz... how i wish now $1000 just drop from the sky. or mayb appears in my bag next moment i opens it later? i think i'm not fully awake... still dreaming...
fuck up world with all these FUCK up people aroud!!! I hate it!!!!! Fuck up life!!!
Dear says : see steph & peiqi's blog... so sweet they look so in love...
Reply : We sweet we two know can alrdy wadz
haha.. k la... love my oreo cookie more each day! now he is in the airforce, jia you k dear i noe no matter how hard / tough u will be able to handle it right ;)
had a wonderful time with dear last week, besides all my surgery etc. Thnks for taking care of me. Your panick face when i'm in pain also quite cute ^-^ hee... always remind me to update my blog, nah... this post is just openly for you k :) ppl please say us sweet if not i post for nothing... wahaha.. *ter jealous ma? hehe tts my point! lols kidding. I missing every one :( esp dou, fred, xiang, ken & ter( i still miss u k). Missing the time spent chilling, gossiping, doing nothing and how they force me to come out by waiting at my house downstair during my exam period!!!! this doesnt mean i dun miss the rest k. i miss nra ppl. everyone plays a part of moments tat i've spent in nra and hanging out w nra peeps are still the best time ever. i'll nv ever forget the gd n bad times. they are all so precious to me. ^^
Opps! Shucks... i tot i've mentioned that this post is purely for dear only =X lols kk...
So... hmm Ive my best moments with you last week ^^
U surprised me at the dental surgery clinic and i'll nv forget the reply to me when i asked u why you are here and how u get here? "I'm here coz i know u need me :) " -=thnks dear=-
The sentosa trip and xmas shopping!!! though is reali a tiring day. but i really really had fun. esp all those ba bin photos that turns out so dope after u photoshop it! hehes...
Addictors training together, oso can oso can session is so fun! love addictors !!! dopest oso can grp! haha
The dinner with your family... keke... i miss the beef =/ now... right now.. i hungry le =/ the way u treated me so well. even ur mum is doubting ur concern to me " Ken got take good care of gf one ma? or you taking care of him? tell me... cos i have never seen him taking care of anyone. I am the one who always need to take care of him" hehes.. this shows that dear... u r a man now le ! lols... my flying air force dopy ns man!
Your room will be even more baby blue soon! trust me dear... haha . Dun bully my forever friend! must hug her when im nt ard ar! if i see her on the floor again! i .... i ... i ..... i sleep with yuki (-_-")
the cookies we made... esp the addidas ones. lol... when we opening tt famous amos shop2? ^^
and now i remeber something.... the reason why i gt this two pimples on my face is cos of ur camo cream la!!!! u r the culprit! 4 more pimple on ur face tis week! LALALALA~
dear... dun forget the ben & jerry tis week when u book out! Jj Waiting~~~ lalalalala~~~
tHe CuLPrIt iS You!!!
thanks for taking care of me while palying your counter stirke or playing your counter strike while taking care of me?? hmm.... *confuse
Dear dear.... why you no ba bin (-_-"')
The best View When I opens my eye every morning :)
Sun tanning day!!!
Butter factory~~
wahahaha... recieved links on friendster early in the morning when i reach office... oh my gosh!! u guys watch youself... i think u all will laugh till lau sai.
I was onli 15yrs old at that time kie -_-"'
xiao mei mei bu dong shi.
Really song -_-"' u all can laugh. but not too loud lolx.
3 videos here! enjoy! wahahaha
1st video: Song > coco lee so crazy
-Orange tee shirt : me -_-
-Blue tee shitrt : Jovelle
-Black tee shirt : joanna
-Red tee shirt : Stephanie Tan
-Yellow tee shirt : Pin hui
-Red Sleevless : Elvi
-Breaker : kenny, zhe loon, Chee keng, siu loon
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bOtTMsvpzWg
2nd video: Song > V6 We can do it
- Baby Blue Jersey : Me -_-"
- Orange Jersey : Jovelle
- Red Jersey : Joanna
- Yellow Jersey : Stephanie Tan
- White Jersey : Valerie
- Red Jersey : Elvi
- White Jersey : Anad
- Black Jersey : Qi xian
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ykjB9ZswicI
3rd Video : song i forgot but its by celine dion ;p
- Yellow dress : Me
- Blue Dress Stephanie Tan
- Red Dress : Joanna
- Orange Dress : Jovelle
- Pink Dress : Valerie
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ym4qnlsZQ3E
its the joke of the day man! lolx.. but it's memorable that i dance like that last time lolx.. gosh *faint
Treated me kind
Sweet destiny
Carried me through desperation
T o the one that was waiting for me
It took so long
Still I believed
Somehow the one that I needed
Would find me eventually
I had a vision of love
And it was all that you've given to me
Prayed through the nights
Felt so alone
Suffered through alienation
Carried the weight on my own
Had to be strong
So I believed
And now I know I've succeeded
In finding the place I conceived
I had a vision of love
And it was all that you've given to me
My vision of love
Love wandered inside
Stronger than you
Stronger than I
And now that it has begun
We cannot turn back
We can only turn into one
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
Whenever you call
And I'll always remember
The part of you so tender
I'll be the one to catch your fall
Whenever you call
And I'm truly inspired
Finding my soul
There in your eyes
And you
Have opened my heart
And lifted me inside
By showing me yourself
Undisguised
I won't ever be too far away to feel you
And I won't hesitate at all
contradiction, adjitation, speechlessness, guilt, hope, grace, love. these are the words that linger in a broken soul, the feelings of a dampen heart. Confusion lives in the mind. Choices we make, we see them for what they're worth tomorrow. fear can stop you loving. love can stop your fear, but its not always that clear. there are always two sides to everything. the power to choose. it takes courage, and wisdom. it takes wisdom to make decisions, and courage to see it through for not always are decisions easy. even if it were the right one.
life is a spectrum of colours. blue, violet, green, yellow. they're ever so beautiful. at the other end of colours that exists are the shades of grey. doubt, pain and confusion. they're the ones we dont want to see, but they exists in the lives of every person. take it in, thats what should be done. we walk past these shadows, but they'll follow. they always do. gotta look away? or we could kill doubt, the demons that break our soul and damnpen our hearts. having faith is important. but what if you found out we had faith in something that didnt have faith in itself? we hurt the ones we love. its not human nature to do so, even if its human nature to be afraid and take precautions to protect our fragile hearts we wont give to them who swear upon their lives will keep safe in theirs. this is where we decide not to cry isnt it? it was decided at the very start to hurt the ones we love. walking thru the grey path together? or parting cause the other one refuse to see the end of spectrum. decision lies on two hearts that suppose to think as one. if only one wishes to walk down alone. that'll be the end of the spectrum sight :)
Everything i do is wrong. Even i dont do anything . Im in the wrong too.
Hide in the dark corner think you will be much happier
I gotta blog... I need to blog! Help me... my eye is reali closing... back hurting... I want to slp!!! ZZZZZzzzzzzzzz....
Recieved this pic from stanley today...
taken few weeks back During public launching of the Bungalows @ Caldecott
From Upper Left : Old School Joe & Christine
From bottom Left: Anne, Jj & Stanley
Missinh Team: Wayne , Old School Dary & Sidyz
Anne's bf send her this today. hahax... share w all of u ^_^
IF YOU HAVE EVER WONDERED WHY MEN LIE.
One day, while a woodcutter was cutting a branch of a tree above a river, his axe fell into the river. When he cried out, the Lord appeared and asked, "Why are you crying?" The woodcutter replied that his axe has fallen into water, and he needed the axe to make his living. The Lord went down in the water and reappeared with a golden axe. "Is this your axe?" the Lord asked. The woodcutter replied, "No." The Lord again went down and came up with a silver axe. "Is this your axe?" the Lord asked. Again, the woodcutter replied, "No." The Lord went down again and came up with an iron axe." Is t! his your axe?" the Lord asked. "Yes", he replied. The Lord was pleased with the man's honesty and gave him all three axes to keep, and the woodcutter went home happy.
Some time later the woodcutter was walking with his wife along the riverbank, and his wife fell into the river. When he cried out, the Lord again appeared and asked him, "Why are you crying?" "Oh Lord, my wife has fallen into the water!" The Lord went down into the water and came up with sexy Angelina Jolie. "Is this your wife?" the Lord asked. " Yes," cried the woodcutter. The Lord was furious. "You lied! That is an untruth!" The woodcutter fell to his knees and cried, "Oh, forgive me, Lord. It is a misunderstanding. You see, if I had said 'no' to Angelina Jolie, You would have come up with Catherine Zeta-Jones. Then, if I also said 'no'! to her, you would have come up with my wife. Had I then said 'yes,' you would have given me all three. Lord, I am a poor man, and am not able to take care of all three wives, and I love my wife such that I don't want her to share me with anyone, so THAT'S why I said yes to Angelina Jolie." The moral of this story is: Whenever a man lies, it is for a good and honorable reason, and for the benefit of others.. MOSTLY his wife!
Dreamz Are always beautiful :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8LpwiWfzfaM
morning ! bad throat today... coughing whole night... but might be a good thing la.. can tk mc tml.. lolx so shld wish me speedy recovery or continue sick? hahaz.
Name : Chan Jia Jin , JJ
Bdae: 21st MaY 1986
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